September Favorites- 2019

IT’S SPOOKY SZN. Happy October! We’re one week into fall and SO many new things to add to my favorites for this month. Seriously I’m in full fall mode, pumpkin spiced everything, all the candles, sweaters and boots you could think of and already beyond excited for the holidays. But before we get too carried away let’s get into this months favorites!

Skincare Product- The end of summer means soaking up all those beach days and laying out in the sun, but not without sun protection! I started using the Hawaiian Tropic Island Tanning Coconut Oil (SPF 25) and I’m obsessed with it. It smells so so good (if you know me you know I love anything and everything coconut) and is in a spray bottle. Who doesn’t love a spray bottle. I was a little weary at first because it is an oil, but it’s so dry that it soaks up right away and doesn’t leave that weird oily film on your skin. But it’s never left me burnt, always just with a nice, even tan.

Beauty Product- I just went a did a little the other Friday night Ulta haul the other day and picked up the Ulta Hydrating Coconut Stick (can’t find it online, I found it in the store) which has saved my skin on those long days. I love grabbing it in the middle of the day when my skin just needs a little pick me up. It doesn’t leave m kin feeling claggy or sticky (like some sticks can do), but just cool and refreshed. I’ve even used this over a little bit of makeup when it’s been on for a while and it doesn’t mess with or move makeup (haven’t tried it on top of foundation though). It’s just an easy and inexpensive product to use quick and on the go!

Makeup Product- I always find myself wanting to use more lip colors and products in the fall/winter months and I’ve been loving the Urban Decay VICE Special Effects lip topper in Seether. It’s supposed to be used on top of a matte lipstick, but I’ve just been scrubbing my lips, putting on lip balm and then going in with the color on top. It’s a really glittery and shimmery shade but isn’t too chunky. It’s a pretty bright red/orange-y color but doesn’t ever look too much. I’ve used it for both casual and more dramatic looks and it always looks good!

Haircare Product- During my Ulta haul I also stocked up on a few of the Not Your Mother’s haircare products, which are my absolute favs. I started using their stuff when I found the Beach Babe Texturizing hairspray and I’ve been obsessed every since. I got the Clean Freak and Beach Babe dry shampoos, one more Beach Babe Texturizing hairspray and the Plump for Joy hair thickening spray (which I tried for the first time the other day and love). Their products work so well in my hair and always do exactly what they’re supposed to. And plus they smell incredible so what’s not to love.

Clothing Item- Not anything specific, and no links or photos but I’ve been LIVING in large, oversized sweaters as the weather has cooled down a bit.

Swimsuit- I know it’s fall but I’m out here in LA still pretending it’s summer (even though I’m obsessed with everything and anything fall right now). I’ve gotten a lot of new bikinis over the last few months, but one of my favorites has been an olive green top and white cheeky bottoms for Forever 21. It’s a really easy suit to wear and stays in place so is perfect for playing around in the water at the beach. It’s also just so cute and looks good in the summer and the fall.

Food- I tried the Trader Joe’s apricot, cherry and cranberry goat’s cheese the other night during a casual cheese night a couple of weeks ago and it was SO yummy. It’s super creamy but the fruit all around really cuts through the fattiness. We got a bunch of different kinds of crackers and a baguette and spread it all over that and it was delicious. It’s definitely one of my favorite cheeses I’ve ever tried from Trader Joe’s (and I’ve tried a lot) and I can’t wait to get get myself another one (or two or three…).

Drink- Move over PSL, Starbucks’ pumpkin cream cold brew is my obsession right now. I tried it super randomly without having read anything about it when it first came out and it’s soooo good. I love my pumpkin spice lattes, but I find them too sweet sometimes to drink too much of. The pumpkin spice cold brew is literally just cold brew with a sweet, pumpkin flavored foamy cream on top, and it’s the perfect blend of summer and fall. I’ve been drinking them all day everyday and am sure I won’t be slowing down anytime soon.

Fall Treat- Continuing on the trend of pumpkin spiced treats, I found pumpkin spiced yoghurt covered pretzels and Sprouts a couple of week ago and have been loving those. They’re super sweet so it’s hard to eat a lot of them but the pumpkin spice flavor is SO strong that it’s the yummiest thing ever. Also because it’s Sprouts you just scoop however much you want in a bag and it’s super inexpensive so we love that too.

Movie- Not really a movie, but I finally watched the Fenty Fashion Show on Amazon the other night and it was incredible. I had been reading all about it and seeing all the hype and it did not miss a beat. It was super fun and the performers were great but more than that the message it sent was so clear. I had goosebumps the whole time watching and seeing how all of these girls at all ages, races, sexualities and SIZES were being praised. They all looked incredible in Rihanna’s lingerie and I honestly think this has set a new precedent for all fashion shows to come. It was just a reminder that everyone is beautiful, regardless of size.

TV Show- Season 16 of Grey’s Anatomy is back and that makes me SO happy. That also means that I’ve started re-watching some of my favorite older episodes because who doesn’t do that before a season premier. I haven’t been with the show since the beginning but I caught all the way up and have been watching live for the last 6 years so I’ll take that and call me a fan. The first episode was so good and I’m excited for the rest of the season but I’m also just loving watching all these older episodes right now.

Song- Don’t know why, but I’ve been listening to Lorde’s Supercut on repeat the last few weeks. It had been a minute since I listened to it but after hearing it in the movie Someone Great, I’ve been obsessed with it again. It really just gets me in my feeeelz if you know what I mean.

WEIGHT STIGMA AWARENESS WEEK

Hello, happy Sunday, happy fall, all that good stuff! This last week was NEDA’s first-ever Weight Stigma Awareness Week; an effort to bring awareness to this aspect of ED’s that often goes unnoticed. This post is all about raising awareness, sharing my story with weight and, once again, b r e a k i n g  t h e  s t i g m a. I read a quote from NEDA’s Instagram that said:

“Trying to prevent and treat eating disorders without directly addressing weight stigma will always be like trying to get rid of weeds by cutting off the tops. In order to truly prevent and allow full recovery from eating disorders, we must attack the problem at it’s root. And that root is weight stigma.”

That could not be more true. I don’t believe, and I don’t think other people believe, that weight stigma is the cause of eating disorders, but it definitely doesn’t make recovery any easier. BMI is not a measure of physical OR mental health, it’s an algorithm created by and for white men decades ago to measure the ratio between height and weight, not taking into account any other factors. When we define others, or even worse define ourselves, by the number on the scale or our BMI ratio, we’re taking an unrelated figure and allowing it to dictate our health. And people always say ditch the scale or don’t think about numbers, but weight has taken on a life of it’s own, and it goes way beyond the scale. Weight and appearance have become one. If you look heavier, you weigh more. If you look smaller, you weight less. People make these assumptions without knowing anything more than what you look like. And that’s dangerous beyond words.

And how can we blame anyone for how bad weight stigma has gotten. It’s penetrated our world, everything is about weight. It’s everywhere. Advertisements are constantly reminding us all that we must be under a certain weight to wear their clothes. Brands that have one size clothing that are equivalent to a size 2-4 create their brand around people who are under a certain weight. When we run into an old friend, the first thing we say is “you look so good!”. WHY. Why is the first comment we make to a friend after a long time apart about their appearance. Why can’t we praise people about anything other than their weight and appearance. It’s all just adding to the weight of weight stigma (no pun intended).

Honestly, I feel a bit hypocritical saying these things because I’ve never found peace with my weight. The scary thing is, I’ve been at my highest weight and I’ve been at my lowest and I’ve never been happy with how I look or how much I weigh. I’ve been at the point where people have straight up told me I look like I’d gained a lot of weight, and I’ve been at the point where people have gushed over how great I look after purging my brains out to lose weight, and none of these have ever made me feel good.

My natural body type is prone to heavy weight fluctuation. Day-to-day, week-to-week my weight goes up and down so easily. I would love to say that I am confident enough to not let me weight affect me, but that would be a lie. Every morning when I wake up, the first thing I want to do is check what my body looks like in the mirror. How bloated am I, how defined are my abs, how flat is my butt looking; it’s so easy to get sucked into all of that. Some days I look at myself and feel AMAZING and other days I look at myself and just want to cover it all up with leggings and a big sweater. Sometimes I let me weight control me, sometimes I don’t. But I have never gone a full day without thinking about my weight. It’s something that has controlled my life (I’ve learned that it truly is the voice of the ED) for so long. So while I would love to come on here and say everything is perfect, that wouldn’t be real.

It’s okay to have days where I don’t like how I look, it’s part of being human. But it’s not okay to just sit back and allow everyone to become consumed by that number on the scale. We are more than that, and that does not define  a n y o n e. Bodies are beautiful. Bodies allow us to do so much. Bodies are allowed to carry weight. But it shouldn’t have to carry the expectations that other people put on us.

Instead of telling someone how great they look, tell them you’re proud of them for starting a new, exciting project. Instead of commenting on someone’s weight or size in a photo, tell them how happy they look. Instead of commenting on their muscles, fat or anything else about their bodies, tell them they look healthy. Because at the end of the day, what does weight actually mean. As long as your healthy and happy, both physically and mentally. That’s all that matters.

Let’s use this week and all the inspo that came along with it to smash the stigma. We can do it, we are stronger than it.

Sending all the love, joy and positivity for the best week ahead. Lots of love xx

August Favorites 2019

Hi everyone, hope you’re having a lovely long weekend! I’m back and school now and back to the grind. I had an amazing end of summer full of long lake days, endless days in the sun and pool parties. I have so many fun and exciting new things lined up for this fall and I can’t wait to share it all with you. But for now, here are all the things I’ve been loving this month!

Skincare Product- This summer I’ve been using the Sephora Coconut Water Hydrating Mist all summer long. It’s super cheap but feels and smells so good. It just feels like it’s pure coconut water in a really nice spray bottle (which I absolutely love) and it feels so nice as a refresher on your face after a long day in the sun. I also like using this right after washing my face and using my moisturizer and a quick and easy toner.

Makeup Product- I talk about this product all the time but I’ve seriously been using it every single day this month, and it’s the Tarte PRO Glow palette. It’s perfect because it has four beautiful highlighters and two bronzers which is all I’ve really been wanting to use during these hot summer days. They are all so nicely pigmented and don’t smudge or rub off if I get too sweaty or even if I jump in the pool for a bit. It’s the perfect summer face palette for an easy, glowy look.

Jewelry- This month I’ve been wearing the 2Bandits Athens opal bar necklace (from one of my FabFitFun boxes) almost everyday. It’s a small and understated, yet elegant piece that can be worn with a t-shirt and shorts or a nicer outfit. I usually love wearing bigger statement pieces, but I’ve found that this small one is easy to wear around town, to the lake or even to a pool party because it doesn’t get in the way, but it still adds a little pop.

Clothing Item- I’ve been living in a new pair of Forever 21 mom jean shorts (linked similar ones) the last few weeks. It’s a darker denim with five buttons going up making it high-waisted. I’ve been pairing it with tight crop tops or even just a bikini top. It’s super easy to thrown on and is loose and comfy in this crazy LA summer heat. All I’m gonna say is mom jeans are out, mom jean shorts are IN!

Swimsuit- I just got a new order from She In a few days ago and I got a swimsuit that I am obsessed with. It’s a dark green and white striped halter bikini with cheeky bottoms. I bought it on sale for $5 so was expecting it to be pretty bad quality but I’m so pleasantly surprised by how nice it is (I actually love SheIn bikinis, they’re so great for what you’re paying). So I’ve been living in this suit the last few days trying to wear it as much as possible before summers over. If you’re looking for a cheap, cute suit for the last little bit of summer, check out SheIn (sizing tends to run on the small side or size up!).

Movie- I don’t know how it took me so long to watch this movie, but I finally watched Someone Great on Netflix a couple of weeks ago and it was SO GOOD. I’m such a sucker for a good, cheesy rom-com and especially one set in NYC so there was no way I wasn’t loving it. And I also have a major girl crush on Gina Rodriguez so that was just a bonus. If you haven’t already watched it, your homework for tonight is to sit in bed with a face mask on and watch it.

TV Show- I haven’t actually started watching this yet, but I’m really wanting to get into the Sex and the City series. I absolutely love the movies (and by love I mean I’ve watched both 1 and 2 like three times over the last few weeks) and can’t believe I’ve never watched the show. So this month I’m making it my goal to become obsessed with the show, because we all know I really well. But I’m also on the lookout for new fun shows so if you know of any good ones send me a DM or leave your suggestions in the comments below.

Song- I’ve been listening to anything and everything Jonas Brothers the last couple weeks, especially Love Her and Year 3000. But I’ve also been playing Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi and Supercut by Lorde on repeat the last week. Basically I’ve been really into finding new songs this month getting ready for all those long nights in the library.

Back-to-School Item- Now that I’m back to school and back to the grind I needed to get some stuff to help me get and stay organized for the crazy year ahead. Last year I used the Kate Spade ‘Things We Love’ 2018-2019 planner and I absolutely loved it, so I went with another Kate Spade one this year. The Gold Spade Flower 17-month planner (large) is beautiful and makes staying organized and on top of everything so easy. And the best part, it has two pages of cute, gold metallic stickers to use throughout the year, because even your school work needs to be a bit bedazzled, right.

Tokyo Spot- Right before I left Tokyo to come back my mom, sister and I finally went to TeamLab Borderless in Odaiba, Tokyo and it was incredible! I had heard so many good things about it and was beginning to think that it may have been overhyped, but it absolutely was not. It was even better than I expected and was so worth the trip. It was so big that we didn’t even get to all the rooms while spending an afternoon there. Highly recommend a trip there if you’re ever in Tokyo (tip: buy tickets online ahead of time- it’s crazy crowded)!

July Favorites 2019

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but Happy August! We’re in full summer mode and I’m absolutely loving it. The month of July was incredible for me with lot’s of travel, family and much appreciated down time. I’m at my lake house now in Northern Japan and enjoying long, sunny days out in the sun. I’ve been working on a lot of different and cool posts for the coming months and I can’t wait to share it all with you. I honestly have just been super chill this last month, so this month is a bit shorter, but nonetheless here it is, enjoy!

Skincare Product- This is basically makeup, but I’ll put it here for now. During these weeks at the lake, I haven’t really been wearing a lot of makeup, but I do like to have a nice little glow going, especially since I’m out in the sun all the time. I’ve been using the Benefit Girl Meets Pearl luminizer to highlight my cheekbones and down the bridge of my nose.

Makeup Product- I talked about this in my last favorites post, but I bought five new eye shadows from Kiko Milano in Sicily and Barcelona and absolutely love them. My favorite eye shadows are typically Tarte and the Colourpop super shocks, and these easily match up to those two. I was looking for more colorful shades to test out and found some beautiful purples, pinks, blues and yellows. They apply so buttery and smoothly without creasing, even after wearing it throughout a long day.

Clothing Item- While I was in Barcelona, I was on the hunt for a new, cute white bikini top, and I finally found the cutest one at the store Undiz. It was only 10 euros and is such good quality with good support (kinda hard to find that combo in bikini tops!). I’ve been wearing it a lot here at the lake and keep on getting comments about how cute it is. Such a steal, such a great purchase, be sure to check them out!

Movie- I talked about how much I loved ‘The First Monday in May’ in a favorites post a few months ago, and this month I finally watched ‘The September Issue’ the other day and I love it just as much. It follows the life and career of Vogue’s Anna Wintour, who I am absolutely obsessed with. It’s such a great movie, and if you’re looking for something to watch after watching ‘The First Monday in May’, watch this!

TV Show- I started watching Designated Survivor on Netflix at the beginning of the month and finished the first two seasons (48 episodes) in about 5 days and finished the third season soon after that. It’s such a good and addicting show that’s very current and relatable to what’s happening in our political world today. I’m so sad because news just broke that the show just got cancelled, but I think it’s still 100% worth it to watch those three seasons anyway.

Song- Like everyone else, I’ve been obsessed with Ed Sheeran’s new collaboration album, but I’ve especially been loving South of the Border. It’s such a great album and did not disappoint, especially with all the hype. But I’ve also found myself listening to a lot of Jess and Gabriel’s cover songs (on Spotify) that I’ve been really liking.

See you soon, stay tuned for more posts xx

Aime

June Favorites 2019

Hello lovelies, hope you all had a sun-filled weekend! It’s time again for monthly favorites. I’ve been traveling/on vacation for most of the month so a lot of these are things that I found useful/just like a lot during this trip.

Skincare Product- I’ve talked about this product a lot on here, but the Tarte Maracuja Oil has been amazing this month to help me with my skin and makeup. I usually use it on a pamper evening for my face right before I go to sleep, but this month I’ve been using it together with my foundation to make it a little more hydrating and lightweight.

Makeup Product- This summer I’ve been using my Tarte Passport to Paradise palette a ton. It has a mix of beautiful neutral shades and fun pops of color to play around with. As always, the pigment and formula on these shadows are so nice and apply so smoothly and last a full day of sun and sweat. I also discovered the brand Kiko Milano when I was in Italy so I picked up a few shadows and am excited to see how those are!

Haircare Product- This month I’ve been using the Garnier Grow Stronger Apple conditioner for my hair and it’s been amazing. I’ve been loving Garnier shampoo and conditioner for the last year now, and this conditioner is perfect for summer. I don’t love using too many oils or leave-ins during the summer because it can get too heavy and oily at times, so this conditioner leaves my hair so smooth and silky that I don’t need to use anything after. 

Clothing Item- I found this cute off the shoulder top at Forever 21 in Tokyo right before we left for our Europe trip and it’s quickly become my favorite top this vacation. It’s SO cute and summery and can be easily dressed up and down. I’ve worn it so many times and I’ve loved it every time. It’s a very thin and light material that is so cool and breathable, especially on those sweltering days.

Accessory- I got the Lele Sadoughi Silver Circle Necklace in one of my past FabFitFun boxes and I’ve been wearing it a lot this summer. I used to only wear it when I got dressed up a bit, but I’ve been wearing it with all sorts of outfits the last month. It’s just a simply but beautiful statement piece that’s not too in your face but still makes a statement.

Movie- I haven’t really been watching movies this month, maybe because I’ve just been binging Full House, but one movie I really want to watch it Netflix’s new Murder Mystery with Jennifer Anniston and Adam Sandler. I love when they work together and love them both separately as well, so I can’t wait to watch it.

TV Show- Ever since I was little, I’ve been addicted to Full House, but for some reason I’ve found myself watching it a ton over the last month. I don’t really know why, but anytime I sit down to watch something I seem to always put it on. I’ve seen every episode at least three times so it’s not new to me at all, but it’s such a fun and easy show to have on while doing whatever.

Podcast- You might think this is super lame, but I DON’T CARE. I listen to the Almost Famous podcast with Ashley Iaconetti and Ben Higgins religiously. Every week after the Bachelorette I run to download their recap episode and listen to the whole hour and a half pretty much in one sitting.

Song- I don’t know how I just discovered this song, especially since I’m in love with Kelly Clarkson, but “Broken & Beautiful” from the movie ‘Ugly Dolls’ has been on my repeat list for the last few weeks. It’s so catchy and upbeat with such a strong, positive message.

App- Since I’ve been taking SO many photos and wanting to edit them well but quickly on my phone, I’ve been using the app Airbrush. I think it’s meant more for editing your face/body, but I think it has great features for editing the coloring/lighting/saturation and all that other stuff for landscape photos. I love just having an app on my phone that I can use anytime, anyplace.

Travel Accessory- I’ve been using my polka dot Kate Spade passport case (discontinued) for a couple of years now and am reminded of how much I love it every time I travel. Not only do I get to travel in style, but it makes it so easy to keep track of my passport and allows me to keep my other important cards and travel documents together in the same place.

Mode of Transport- Haha! I know this sounds weird, but for the first time in any of our lives, my family and I went on a cruise. I had honestly never thought much of cruises and was never really interested in it, but it ended up being hands down one of my favorite vacations/way to travel ever. We traveled with Princess Cruises, on the ship the Emerald Princess, and it was such a lovely experience. The ship, rooms, pool, clubs, bars, restaurants and everything else were so nice and clean and the staff and everyone who took care of us were so incredibly generous and made the trip so special.

Lots of fun Travel Diaries to come, so keep an eye out for those over the next few weeks. But for now, soak up the sun and enjoy the summer!

xx Aime

April & May Favorites 2019

Hello lovely friends! Hope you all had a FAB weekend. These last couple months have absolute FLOWN BY… so much so that I totally dropped the ball on monthly favorites. But we are back here today doing a little catch up on all my favorites from the last few months. Enjoy and I will talk to you again very soon! xx

Skincare Product- Now that its summer and a little more humid (especially now that I’m back in Asia), I’ve been living more lightweight moisturizers. My go-to is typically the Clinique moisturizer, but during these summer months I’ve been loving the Curél Moisturizing Milk. It’s so lightweight but still very hydrating.

Makeup Product- I’m not usually a blush person, but lately I’ve been using the Tarte Amazonian Clay Blush pretty much everyday. I love that it gives me a little rosy glow without being too much. It’s such a great addition to a neutral and natural makeup look.

Haircare Product- I think I’ve talked about this before, but I’ve been using the Garnier Fructis Sleek & Shine Anti-Frizz Serum a lot lately, and I’ve been loving it. It does such a good job at keeping your hair healthy and hydrating while still leaving it so radiant. And it’s such an incredible product and SO affordable.

Clothing Item- I found this really cute romper from Top Shop (can’t find the link:() at Saks Off Fifth on Black Friday and I’m so glad it’s finally summer and I can wear it now. It’s such a fun outfit that can be dressed up or down and can be worn for seriously any occasion. It’s just so fun and flirty.

Shoes- I just finished a month-long internship and was living for these SODA black espadrille platform sandals. They are SO cute and comfy while still looking put together and progressional. They’re so comfortable and could literally walk around in them all day without anything blisters. And best of all, gives you height!

Accessory- Since I was working this past month, I was wearing jewelry every day. My Return to Tiffany bracelet with the little blue heart has been my go-to every single day. It’s a very minimal piece that still makes a statement with the pop of blue.

Restaurant- Since I was able to spend the month of May back at home in Singapore, I was able to go back to all of my favorite SG spots. Lantern at the Fullerton Bay Hotel has always been one of my favorites. They have such cool and different drinks with the most s t u n n i n g view of the most beautiful part of Singapore.

Sweet Treat- When my sister and my mom came and visited LA a couple months ago, we went on a food tour around LA (not actually, but kinda haha) and of course HAD to visit Bumsan Milk Bar in Koreatown. They have amazing soft serve in a cereal cone and it’s the most decadent and delicious thing ever.

App- I love games and apps that can give me something mindless to do since I get distracted and bored really easily, and I found the game 1010! Color the other day (FREE!) and I’ve been pretty much playing it every free second I have.

Movie- This is definitely an older one, but for some reason I’ve watched Friends With Benefits four times in the last two weeks. It’s just such a fun and easy movie to watch on a lazy afternoon. But I also watched the new Always Be My Maybe on Netflix the other day and it was so good! Definitely did not disappoint.

TV Show- I love David Chang and all of his shows, and I’ve found myself rewatching all of his Ugly Delicious episodes lately. I’ve seriously seen them all at least three times and can’t wait for the second season to be out.

Song- I don’t know if a lot of people know this, but absolutely LOVE country music. It’s pretty much all I listen to. Jake Owen sang one of his new songs, Made For You, on last weeks episode of The Bachelorette and I’ve been obsessed with it ever since.

Mental Health Moment #9- EVERYTHING MENTAL HEALTH

Happy Sunday and happy Mental Health Awareness Month! Today I’m so excited to share this mega post that’s covering anything and everything mental health. I’ve said this before and I’ll say this again, it’s all about breaking the stigma. That phrase is seriously overused, but there still doesn’t seem to be much of a change. Mental health issues and struggles are everywhere, seriously… everywhere. It’s nothing to be ashamed of, it doesn’t make you weak, in fact I think that being able to recognize when you’re struggling and being able to reach out for help or treatment makes you one f*****g strong person. Take this week as inspiration to be open and honest about your journey, your struggles. Even if your story helps just one person, it’s all worth it.

My mental health update:

I wanted to start of with a little update on my mental health and where I’m at right now. To be honest, I’ve been struggling a bit the last few weeks transitioning from the end of my sophomore year to summer. Transitions are always hard for me because it interrupts my recovery and treatment routine and forces me to adapt quickly. I was able to talk about this with my therapists before leaving for the break, and I think that’s helped a lot, but it’s still hard. The best thing I can do for myself is continue to be open and honest about how everything’s going. A large part of this is being able to acknowledge when I’m not having a great day or when I’m feeling a bit off. If there’s been anything in my life that’s been nearly as hard as recovery, it’s faking being happy. There’s nothing worse than pretending that I’m feeling great and loving life when I just feel so unbelievably blah and empty inside. Being able to say that I am feeling really anxious or depressed that day has been the best thing I can do for myself. I’ve also had to learn that putting my mental health first means that I have to be selfish sometimes. I have to become comfortable with saying no (which is incredibly hard for me) and I have to be okay with asking my friends and support system for help when I need it. And actually, that isn’t selfish as at all as long as I’m also making sure to support those around me just as much as they support me. I have to remind myself, every single day, that I am worthy. Remind yourself that too.

Body Dysmorphia… What is it?

I’ve been really open about my ED and dealing with anxiety and depression, but one thing I haven’t really talked about is body dysmorphia. It usually goes hand in hand with EDs but also adds another level of complexity to the illness. Body dysmorphic disorder, by definition, is a disorder that makes you focus on certain and specific physical flaws in your appearance. They are often so small that no one else would notice it, but it’s often times the only thing you notice about yourself. It can become so severe that you make drastic changes in your behavior and social behavior to avoid flare ups of these feelings. For me personally, my body dysmorphia would be extremely severe right before a purge, but would subside right after (I’ve learned that this is the eating disorder voice telling me what it wants me to hear). I feel comfortable in baggy sweatpants and sweatshirts that cover up my body and feel extremely anxious when wearing anything that exposes parts of my body. A big part of my recovery, and one of the goals I set for myself this summer, is to become comfortable wearing clothes I want to wear, no matter how uncomfortable I feel in it. BD is one of the aspects of mental illnesses and eating disorders that often goes under the radar, maybe because to some it seems like an overreaction, but it’s just as important/severe as anything else.

Tips and tricks: on days where you’re feeling less than, try these tips out and remember that everything will be okay

  • Breathe– Take deep breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth to slow down your sympathetic nervous system.
  • Essential oils– Use different blends of essential oils, either on your body or in a diffuser to help reset & revive your mind. Lavender, spearmint and ylang ylang are my favorites to diffuse every day.
  • Get creative– Grab a piece of paper and just start doodling, painting or whatever else your creative juices are feeling. If you’d rather use a device, there are tons of coloring and doodling apps that work just as well.
  • Gratitude– Write down three things you are grateful for, right then and there in the moment. This is something you can do right there on the spot or incorporate it into your morning/daily routine.
  • Fidget– One of my friends got me a bag of marbles to play with every time I’m feeling anxious, and it’s actually been one of the best ways to help calm myself down.
  • Do nothing– Remember that it’s okay to do absolutely nothing sometimes, it’s not lazy, it’s not selfish, it’s necessary.
  • Pamper– Take a bath, take a long shower, book a massage or a facial, anything that’s going to help you feel normal and special.
  • Move– You don’t have to do anything intense to get your body going, a quick yoga session or even just a leisurely walk in your favorite area of town will do the trick. Anything to get your heart rate up and blood flowing will always make you feel better.
  • Clean– Having a clean space can help clear your mind. When your space is cluttered, it’s easy for your mind to reflect your environment. Tidying up and doing a simple clean can help you feel in control of everything, and it’s a great way to get moving a bit.
  • Therapy– This isn’t something you can do right on the spot, but I really believe that therapy is a life-changer. Ever since I began therapy, I feel so much more centered on a daily basis. It’s not going to fix all your problems at once, it’s a practice that takes time, but it helps, I promise.

 

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As always, I’m sending an infinite amount of love, support and positive vibes your way. Whatever you’re going through, however shitty your day/week/month has been, I promise it will get better, I promise the light will come. Someone in my life once told me that there is no “light at the end of the tunnel” but simply people who love you bringing a light into the tunnel. Eventually there are so many people shining a light around you that you forget you are in the tunnel. I’ve been playing that through my head constantly the last few weeks, and it’s helped put everything in perspective. Being at rock bottom has allowed me to see beauty and joy more clearly than ever. The light will come, believe me.

Lots of love xx

Mental Health Moment #8- Inspiration Board

Hello lovelies and happy hump day! Hope you all are having a fabulous week so far and if you’re not, keep your head up, it’ll get better I promise. For today’s post, I thought I would share some of the quotes that I turn to on days where I’m feeling blah or even just a little less than happy. I’m always adding to my photo album on my phone and find myself flipping through these photos when I need a little pick me up and I hope they can do the same for you!

Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way xx

March Favorites 2019

Good morning lovelies! I know this is a few days late, I just can’t believe it’s already April. But it’s FINALLY spring and I couldn’t be happier. Nothing makes me more happy than clear blue skies and the warmth of the sun on my skin while out and about during the day. I had so many exciting things piled up to share with you for this month’s favorites, so I hope you all enjoy. Happy reading! xx

Favorite…

Makeup ProductTarte Maneater Mascara. I’m always down for long, voluminous lashes, but this month I’ve found myself prioritizing mascara and lashes over almost everything else. I’ve been obsessed with this mascara for a while now, but have found myself reaching for it almost every single day this month. It really just gives your lashes so much definition and length with just a few coats.

Makeup Product 2 (because why not)Fenty Match Stix in Yacht Lyfe. It’s finally sunny out which means I’m living for minimal makeup with a natural glow. I’ve been obsessed with this Fenty highlighter stick since I got it last Christmas, but I’ve found myself using it almost every single day this month and I love the natural glow and shimmer it gives to my face.

Skincare ProductTree Hut Shea Sugar Scrub. Like I said, it’s finally hot and sunny so I’ve been out by the pool in a bikini almost every day. I love this sugar scrub to keep my skin healthy and radiant. It’s also a great scrub to use before shaving (because we need to keep those legs nice and sleek to show them off by the pool).

Haircare ProductGarnier Fructis Sleek & Shine anti-frizz serum. I use the Garnier shampoo, conditioner and leave-in hair treatment, but I’ve added this serum into my haircare routine as well and it always leaves my hair with the softest finish and a pretty little sheen. I use a pump of this along with the leave-in conditioner on wet hair right after I’m out of the shower.

Clothing ItemKate Spade Lisannef’s pink glitter sunglasses. I got these for Christmas this past December, but have really started wearing them a lot this month as the sun came out a little more. During my NYC trip I had these on pretty much the whole time and they’re just so freaking adorable and go with every single outfit.

Brunch SpotLavender & Honey Espresso Bar. Sunday brunch is kinda my thing (haha if you couldn’t tell), and nothing brings me more joy than finding new spots to relax on a Sunday morning over good food and a cup of coffee. A friend recommended L&H for breakfast the other morning and it was amazing. To be honest, going in I thought it was going to be boring since their specialty is toasts, but it was the farthest thing from boring. The lavender & honey and the cream cheese tartine on their artisan bread were absolutely to die for .

Sweet TreatMomofuku Milk Bar (New York City). I know you’re probably sick and tired of hearing all about New York, but I can’t help it, it was just so amazing and there were so many things to pull from for this months favorites. With that being said, Milk Bar had been on my ultimate food bucket list for years now (and even more after watching Christina Tosi’s episode of Chef’s Table), and it DID NOT disappoint. I’m not gonna lie, I definitely went to Milk Bar every single day of the trip, because when else am I going to eat Crack Pie and Cereal Milk ice cream four days in a row?! Everything I had was so so good and has earned a high place on my favorite foods for sure.

MovieThe First Monday in May. I’ve been wanting to watch this movie for a while, but after my NYC trip and visiting the Met I just had to. I love documentaries and this one was so fun to watch and different from anything else. And it’s on Netflix now so what more do you need!

TV ShowGossip Girl. I know I’m a little late (and by a little I mean a lot) to hop on the bandwagon, but, again, after my NYC trip I was like I absolutely have to start watching. I’m literally only a few episodes in but already see myself getting obsessed with it.

BookGaining: The truth about life after eating disorders. I had to pick a book to read for one of my classes this semester and decided on one about an eating disorder. As hard as it is to read about such a difficult topic that has so much impact on my life at this very moment, it’s been so empowering to read other people’s experiences. 

Healthy Habit– Keeping a daily gratitude journal. This is something I’ve been doing off and on for the last two years but have found myself falling into this routine a lot more this past month. I try to write down something I’m grateful for the second I way up every day, and I really find that starting my day off with a grateful heart always gets my day off right.

February Favorites 2019

Happy Tuesday, hope you’re all having a FAB week! I know this is a few days late, but the February flew by. So without further ado, here are this past month’s favorites!

Favorite…

Makeup Product– Since we’re just a couple weeks away from the first day of spring, I’ve been loving fun and bright eyeshadow colors like the Banana Daiquiri Super Shock Shadow from Colourpop. It’s a stunning bright blue that gives the perfect pop to your eyes without being too much. And the best part, it’s only $5!

Skincare Product– I just got the Trader Joe’s Rose Water Face Toner as a gift and I’ve been obsessed with it. It has such a nice spray nozzle and mists really nicely. I love using it throughout the day to refresh my face (even with makeup on) or right before I go to bed after doing my skincare routine. It also smells amazing!

Beauty Product– Since it’s been pretty grey and rainy in LA, I’ve been craving a tan and have been using the St. Moriz Instant Tan in the shade dark to get a little extra sun-kissed glow. It goes on so well, isn’t streaky and gives a nice, even coverage. And it’s only $9 on Amazon and comes with the cutest application mitt.

Hair Care Product– This month I’ve been obsessed with the Garnier Green Apple and Green Tea shampoo. It smells so good and gets my hair feeling so clean while also making it feel healthy and hydrated which is much needed and appreciated during these dryer months.

Clothing Item– Yellow button down dress from Forever 21. I bought this on sale over Christmas knowing it would be perfect for spring/summer and I’m so glad I did. It’s so comfy, cute and flirty and can easy be dressed up with some heals or down with a pair of sneakers.

Brunch Spot– Maybe it’s because it’s almost spring, or maybe LA is just really rubbing off on me, but I’ve been obsessed with Acai/Berry bowls recently. Berry Bowl in Eagle Rock has been my go-to for healthy, quick breakfasts. My two favorites are the Tropical Bowl and the Blue Majik Bowl with bananas, strawberries, blueberries, granola, lots of coconut and agave.

Restaurant– I’m adding this in super last minute, but I just went to a new find called Blair’s in Eagle Rock for dinner last night and had to add it in. It was so good and so reasonable. We ordered the meatballs with polenta and the bruschetta with burrata to start and I had the Gnochetti with pork sausage as my main and it was so good and the coolest atmosphere.

Sweet Treat– DONUTS. I’ve always been such a donut person, but I’ve seriously been craving them so much this month. I’ve always loved Colorado Donut in Eagle Rock, but I also stumbled upon the cutest new store, Leberry Bakery in Pasadena that has the best donuts and the sweetest staff.

Quote– “But the thing is, even if I could go back, I wouldn’t belong there anymore.” -Ccz. This past week was National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, and this quote was one that was constantly on my mind. It’s a reminder of the progress I’ve made and the places I’m headed. Even if I could go back and stop the behaviors that developed into an eating disorder, I don’t think I would. I truly think that everything happens for a reason, the good, bad and ugly. And I believe that out of every storm comes a rainbow<3

And on that note, those were all my favorites this month. Hope you enjoyed and I’ll see you all very very soon!