12 Days of Christmas | Day 6- The Out-of-the-Ordinary Gift Guide | 2019

Hello hello, and welcome to Day 6 of 12 Days! Today I’m back with a super fun, super different post for you all. It’s my Out-of-the-Ordinary Gift Guide for 2019. Now don’t get confused, this isn’t the same as my 2019 Gift Guide that I did for Day 1, this is different. Getting to open a present that’s wrapped in a perfect box or bag under the tree is always so much fun, but that’s not always for everyone. Or maybe you’re looking to do something different or more impactful this year for your friends and family. This post is filled with all the gifts you could give to make this Christmas one to remember. So read on, enjoy and I’ll see you for Day 7!

FabFitFun is my absolute favorite subscription box ever (you probably know because I literally talk about this in every single post). It costs $49.99 for a single box or $179.99 for a one year subscription (four boxes). The seasonal boxes are filled with everything related to beauty, skincare, fitness and all the essential for a fab lifestyle. Each box is worth between $250-$300, even though you only pay max $50 for it. This would be such a fun gift to give, and will make Christmas come four times a year!

◊ If you’re looking for a smaller, less pricey beauty subscription box, Ipsy is another one of my favorites. It’s the first subscription I ever got for myself, and costs $10 a month or $110 a year. Their small bags are filled with 5 mini makeup and beauty products, so it’s great for testing out new products before purchasing the full-size one (and to be honest, the mini sizes actually last quite a while). Each month also comes in a newly designed pouch that is perfect for different uses. Such a cute gift idea, especially for a college girl!

◊ The Allure Beauty Box is another great beauty-themed subscription gift for a loved one. It costs $15/month, $39.95/3 months or $150/year. This award winning box is filled with items picked out by the Allure staff, so they must all be great, right? Duh! It’s a great idea for something into high fashion and beauty who you just don’t know how to shop for. And if you purchase a subscription right now, you get a free started box as well!

◊ Finally, Boxycharm is another amazing subscription service. At $25/month (or less for longer subscriptions), you get four full-sized makeup, beauty or skincare products that are worth over $125. With products from brands like Tarte, First Aid Beauty, GlamGlow and Natasha Denona, this box will have your loved one feeling oh-so glam all year round. Another perfect and fun subscription box as a Christmas gift!

Donations: Maybe you’re looking for a gift for someone who isn’t really into things, but would appreciate a donation made in their name. Here are some of my favorite organizations that do such amazing work in this world, and who could use a little extra support around the holidays. A donation in your loved one’s name can make such a meaningful gift for someone on Christmas.

Bunny’s Buddies is run by an American couple who saves dogs from meat trucks and kill shelters in South Korea and China. Once these dogs are rescued, they match them with their perfect adopted parents in the US and give them a lifelong home. You can donate through their donation link on their website, purchase items for them through their Amazon wish list or (the easiest) donate through their Venmo @bunnysbuddies. Give the gift of saving dogs!

◊ The National Eating Disorder Association does so much to help fight the stigma against this mental illness. They also offer a 24/7 support hotline for those in need. They have created a community for those who don’t feel like they have anyone to support them. If someone you know has struggled with an ED or has been personally impacted in some way by this illness, a donation to NEDA would be so meaningful.

The Colton Underwood Legacy Foundation was founded by the former Bachelor, Colton Underwood, in the fight against Cystic Fibrosis. Inspired by his young cousin, his foundation raises money to gift CF ‘vests’ to young individuals in need around the country. So if you’re looking for a gift for someone who love The Bachelor and also wants to do something more meaningful during the holidays, a donation to this foundation would be perfect.

This one was short and sweet, but there’s lot’s more to come!! So thanks for reading, stay tuned and I’ll see you for Day 7! xx

October Favorites 2019

Good morning loves and happy November! I know I say this every month, but I can’t believe October is already over. It flew by so quickly and was jam-packed with a lot of exciting things. I absolutely love this time of the year when the weather starts to get a bit cooler (well, cool for LA) and the holiday season kicks in. But before getting carried away with all the holiday goodness, I have to share my monthly favorites, because I have a ton of new, fun things to share with you all this month. So read on, enjoy and I can’t wait to share the holiday season with you all! xx

Skincare Product- I got the H20+ Elements Jelly Cleanser at Ulta the other day and have been loving it. I’ve never tried a jelly face wash before and wasn’t sure if I’d like it or not, but this one is a keeper. It’s also a makeup remover/cleansing balm with argan oil and pearl extract that clears your face of all makeup/product and leaves your skin super soft. There’s a really subtle, clean scent to the cleanser that smells so good and is really calming at the end of the day.

Makeup Product- The other day I was snooping through Sephora (what’s new) and found the Becca Glow Gloss in Champagne Creme (currently on sale so grab it while you can!) and had to buy it. I’ve been super into lip colors and glosses right now so I was so excited when I found this. It’s a really beautiful champagne-toned gloss that applies so smoothly. A lot of times lip glosses are really sticky and tacky, but this one doesn’t leave that icky feeling on your lips, but actually leaves them feeling hydrated. It has little specks of glitter in the formula, but without feeling gritty. There’s also a slight minty flavor/scent which I absolutely LOVE. This is definitely going to be my go to gloss for everyday use this winter.

Clothing Item- This month I traveled to Denver for fall break and the one thing everyone suggested we do was go thrifting. Over the few days we were there I found so many cute, fun pieces of clothing that have quickly become some of my favorite. But one of my favorite pieces I bought was a long, white fuzzy coat with big white buttons down the front. I bought it at a thrift store and can’t find a link for it, but it’s from the brand Love Tree. I’ve been wearing this on top of an all-black outfit with black sunglasses and it’s such a chic, put-together look and I’m sure I’ll be wearing it a ton over the winter.

Swimsuit- I found a white, one-piece swimsuit (similar one linked) with striped cut-outs down the side this summer at Forever 21, and finally wore it the other day as a top under some mom jeans. I had been so scared to wear it to the pool or beach because of the weird tan lines, but wearing it as a top was probably even more fun than wearing it as a swimsuit. It’s a really cute, summery outfit that was much needed during the crazy, late-fall LA heats.

Shoes- I bought the Adidas Sleek sneakers in periwinkle a few months ago and I’ve been wearing them almost every day the last few weeks. I also wore them everyday in Denver, and they were super comfy and got me through long days with lots of walking without any blisters. The periwinkle is also so pretty and adds a little pop to any outfit. They have solid white soles which makes them easy to dress up if needed. I have a few pairs of Adidas shoes now and these are by far my favorite and I’m highly considering getting them in other colors too (as if I need any more shoes).

Restaurant- I’ll talk about this more in my Denver Travel Diary (coming soon, keep your eyes out!) but the one place that we knew we had to eat at in Denver was Snooze, and it was the best brunch I’ve had in a long time. We were in Denver for four days and we went to Snooze for two brunches. We had the best Eggs Benedict, sweet potato pancakes and coconut and strawberry french toast, and their drinks (the bacon-infused Bloody Mary is a must) were amazing. Everything was so good and I’d seriously fly back to Denver just to eat there.

Sweet Treat- Another place we knew we had to visit in Denver was Voodoo Donut. I have been dying to try their donuts ever since I first read about it, and it was SO good. I’m such a sucker for a good donut, and Voodoo really hit the spot. I tried three different donuts (possibly three of the best donuts I’ve ever had in my life), as well as a pumpkin spice cannolo (a canoli, donut type thing) and that was amazing. I know it wasn’t Portland but it was so good, and they’re so photogenic, so what’s not to love about that.

Song- Anyone who knows me knows I’m a sucker for throwback music, and for some reason I’ve been listening to a lot of old Jesse McCartney music lately, especially Leavin‘ and Better With You. I don’t know why, I don’t know how it started, but those songs have been on loop for the last couple of weeks, and I’m not mad about it one bit.

Movie- So I finally watched the Jonas Brothers documentary, Happiness Begins, on Amazon Prime the other day, and it had me feeling all the feels. I grew up in the time of Camp Rock (and all of those iconic Disney Channel movies) and have been in love with the Jonas Brothers ever since (call me ridiculous, I don’t care). I thought they’re new album was SO good and lived up to all of my expectations, and so did this movie. I’m not gonna say much more, but if you love the Jonas Brothers, or even just like them or have ever listened to them, just watch the movie. It’s so sweet.

Los Angeles Spot- I finally finally finally made it out to the Louis Vuitton pop-up store/museum on Rodeo Drive the other day, and it was as amazing as I was expecting it to be. It’s absolutely beautiful from the outside and even more beautiful on the inside. The history of Louis Vuitton was on full display throughout the museum, with all the designs, bags and clothing out for everyone to see. There are a ton of really cute and fun places to take photos, and going on a sunny day makes the photos stunning. If you’re out in LA, I highly recommend spending a few hours there, especially if you’re into fashion!

September Favorites 2019

IT’S SPOOKY SZN. Happy October! We’re one week into fall and SO many new things to add to my favorites for this month. Seriously I’m in full fall mode, pumpkin spiced everything, all the candles, sweaters and boots you could think of and already beyond excited for the holidays. But before we get too carried away let’s get into this months favorites!

Skincare Product- The end of summer means soaking up all those beach days and laying out in the sun, but not without sun protection! I started using the Hawaiian Tropic Island Tanning Coconut Oil (SPF 25) and I’m obsessed with it. It smells so so good (if you know me you know I love anything and everything coconut) and is in a spray bottle. Who doesn’t love a spray bottle. I was a little weary at first because it is an oil, but it’s so dry that it soaks up right away and doesn’t leave that weird oily film on your skin. But it’s never left me burnt, always just with a nice, even tan.

Beauty Product- I just went a did a little the other Friday night Ulta haul the other day and picked up the Ulta Hydrating Coconut Stick (can’t find it online, I found it in the store) which has saved my skin on those long days. I love grabbing it in the middle of the day when my skin just needs a little pick me up. It doesn’t leave m kin feeling claggy or sticky (like some sticks can do), but just cool and refreshed. I’ve even used this over a little bit of makeup when it’s been on for a while and it doesn’t mess with or move makeup (haven’t tried it on top of foundation though). It’s just an easy and inexpensive product to use quick and on the go!

Makeup Product- I always find myself wanting to use more lip colors and products in the fall/winter months and I’ve been loving the Urban Decay VICE Special Effects lip topper in Seether. It’s supposed to be used on top of a matte lipstick, but I’ve just been scrubbing my lips, putting on lip balm and then going in with the color on top. It’s a really glittery and shimmery shade but isn’t too chunky. It’s a pretty bright red/orange-y color but doesn’t ever look too much. I’ve used it for both casual and more dramatic looks and it always looks good!

Haircare Product- During my Ulta haul I also stocked up on a few of the Not Your Mother’s haircare products, which are my absolute favs. I started using their stuff when I found the Beach Babe Texturizing hairspray and I’ve been obsessed every since. I got the Clean Freak and Beach Babe dry shampoos, one more Beach Babe Texturizing hairspray and the Plump for Joy hair thickening spray (which I tried for the first time the other day and love). Their products work so well in my hair and always do exactly what they’re supposed to. And plus they smell incredible so what’s not to love.

Clothing Item- Not anything specific, and no links or photos but I’ve been LIVING in large, oversized sweaters as the weather has cooled down a bit.

Swimsuit- I know it’s fall but I’m out here in LA still pretending it’s summer (even though I’m obsessed with everything and anything fall right now). I’ve gotten a lot of new bikinis over the last few months, but one of my favorites has been an olive green top and white cheeky bottoms for Forever 21. It’s a really easy suit to wear and stays in place so is perfect for playing around in the water at the beach. It’s also just so cute and looks good in the summer and the fall.

Food- I tried the Trader Joe’s apricot, cherry and cranberry goat’s cheese the other night during a casual cheese night a couple of weeks ago and it was SO yummy. It’s super creamy but the fruit all around really cuts through the fattiness. We got a bunch of different kinds of crackers and a baguette and spread it all over that and it was delicious. It’s definitely one of my favorite cheeses I’ve ever tried from Trader Joe’s (and I’ve tried a lot) and I can’t wait to get get myself another one (or two or three…).

Drink- Move over PSL, Starbucks’ pumpkin cream cold brew is my obsession right now. I tried it super randomly without having read anything about it when it first came out and it’s soooo good. I love my pumpkin spice lattes, but I find them too sweet sometimes to drink too much of. The pumpkin spice cold brew is literally just cold brew with a sweet, pumpkin flavored foamy cream on top, and it’s the perfect blend of summer and fall. I’ve been drinking them all day everyday and am sure I won’t be slowing down anytime soon.

Fall Treat- Continuing on the trend of pumpkin spiced treats, I found pumpkin spiced yoghurt covered pretzels and Sprouts a couple of week ago and have been loving those. They’re super sweet so it’s hard to eat a lot of them but the pumpkin spice flavor is SO strong that it’s the yummiest thing ever. Also because it’s Sprouts you just scoop however much you want in a bag and it’s super inexpensive so we love that too.

Movie- Not really a movie, but I finally watched the Fenty Fashion Show on Amazon the other night and it was incredible. I had been reading all about it and seeing all the hype and it did not miss a beat. It was super fun and the performers were great but more than that the message it sent was so clear. I had goosebumps the whole time watching and seeing how all of these girls at all ages, races, sexualities and SIZES were being praised. They all looked incredible in Rihanna’s lingerie and I honestly think this has set a new precedent for all fashion shows to come. It was just a reminder that everyone is beautiful, regardless of size.

TV Show- Season 16 of Grey’s Anatomy is back and that makes me SO happy. That also means that I’ve started re-watching some of my favorite older episodes because who doesn’t do that before a season premier. I haven’t been with the show since the beginning but I caught all the way up and have been watching live for the last 6 years so I’ll take that and call me a fan. The first episode was so good and I’m excited for the rest of the season but I’m also just loving watching all these older episodes right now.

Song- Don’t know why, but I’ve been listening to Lorde’s Supercut on repeat the last few weeks. It had been a minute since I listened to it but after hearing it in the movie Someone Great, I’ve been obsessed with it again. It really just gets me in my feeeelz if you know what I mean.

July Favorites 2019

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but Happy August! We’re in full summer mode and I’m absolutely loving it. The month of July was incredible for me with lot’s of travel, family and much appreciated down time. I’m at my lake house now in Northern Japan and enjoying long, sunny days out in the sun. I’ve been working on a lot of different and cool posts for the coming months and I can’t wait to share it all with you. I honestly have just been super chill this last month, so this month is a bit shorter, but nonetheless here it is, enjoy!

Skincare Product- This is basically makeup, but I’ll put it here for now. During these weeks at the lake, I haven’t really been wearing a lot of makeup, but I do like to have a nice little glow going, especially since I’m out in the sun all the time. I’ve been using the Benefit Girl Meets Pearl luminizer to highlight my cheekbones and down the bridge of my nose.

Makeup Product- I talked about this in my last favorites post, but I bought five new eye shadows from Kiko Milano in Sicily and Barcelona and absolutely love them. My favorite eye shadows are typically Tarte and the Colourpop super shocks, and these easily match up to those two. I was looking for more colorful shades to test out and found some beautiful purples, pinks, blues and yellows. They apply so buttery and smoothly without creasing, even after wearing it throughout a long day.

Clothing Item- While I was in Barcelona, I was on the hunt for a new, cute white bikini top, and I finally found the cutest one at the store Undiz. It was only 10 euros and is such good quality with good support (kinda hard to find that combo in bikini tops!). I’ve been wearing it a lot here at the lake and keep on getting comments about how cute it is. Such a steal, such a great purchase, be sure to check them out!

Movie- I talked about how much I loved ‘The First Monday in May’ in a favorites post a few months ago, and this month I finally watched ‘The September Issue’ the other day and I love it just as much. It follows the life and career of Vogue’s Anna Wintour, who I am absolutely obsessed with. It’s such a great movie, and if you’re looking for something to watch after watching ‘The First Monday in May’, watch this!

TV Show- I started watching Designated Survivor on Netflix at the beginning of the month and finished the first two seasons (48 episodes) in about 5 days and finished the third season soon after that. It’s such a good and addicting show that’s very current and relatable to what’s happening in our political world today. I’m so sad because news just broke that the show just got cancelled, but I think it’s still 100% worth it to watch those three seasons anyway.

Song- Like everyone else, I’ve been obsessed with Ed Sheeran’s new collaboration album, but I’ve especially been loving South of the Border. It’s such a great album and did not disappoint, especially with all the hype. But I’ve also found myself listening to a lot of Jess and Gabriel’s cover songs (on Spotify) that I’ve been really liking.

See you soon, stay tuned for more posts xx

Aime

June Favorites 2019

Hello lovelies, hope you all had a sun-filled weekend! It’s time again for monthly favorites. I’ve been traveling/on vacation for most of the month so a lot of these are things that I found useful/just like a lot during this trip.

Skincare Product- I’ve talked about this product a lot on here, but the Tarte Maracuja Oil has been amazing this month to help me with my skin and makeup. I usually use it on a pamper evening for my face right before I go to sleep, but this month I’ve been using it together with my foundation to make it a little more hydrating and lightweight.

Makeup Product- This summer I’ve been using my Tarte Passport to Paradise palette a ton. It has a mix of beautiful neutral shades and fun pops of color to play around with. As always, the pigment and formula on these shadows are so nice and apply so smoothly and last a full day of sun and sweat. I also discovered the brand Kiko Milano when I was in Italy so I picked up a few shadows and am excited to see how those are!

Haircare Product- This month I’ve been using the Garnier Grow Stronger Apple conditioner for my hair and it’s been amazing. I’ve been loving Garnier shampoo and conditioner for the last year now, and this conditioner is perfect for summer. I don’t love using too many oils or leave-ins during the summer because it can get too heavy and oily at times, so this conditioner leaves my hair so smooth and silky that I don’t need to use anything after. 

Clothing Item- I found this cute off the shoulder top at Forever 21 in Tokyo right before we left for our Europe trip and it’s quickly become my favorite top this vacation. It’s SO cute and summery and can be easily dressed up and down. I’ve worn it so many times and I’ve loved it every time. It’s a very thin and light material that is so cool and breathable, especially on those sweltering days.

Accessory- I got the Lele Sadoughi Silver Circle Necklace in one of my past FabFitFun boxes and I’ve been wearing it a lot this summer. I used to only wear it when I got dressed up a bit, but I’ve been wearing it with all sorts of outfits the last month. It’s just a simply but beautiful statement piece that’s not too in your face but still makes a statement.

Movie- I haven’t really been watching movies this month, maybe because I’ve just been binging Full House, but one movie I really want to watch it Netflix’s new Murder Mystery with Jennifer Anniston and Adam Sandler. I love when they work together and love them both separately as well, so I can’t wait to watch it.

TV Show- Ever since I was little, I’ve been addicted to Full House, but for some reason I’ve found myself watching it a ton over the last month. I don’t really know why, but anytime I sit down to watch something I seem to always put it on. I’ve seen every episode at least three times so it’s not new to me at all, but it’s such a fun and easy show to have on while doing whatever.

Podcast- You might think this is super lame, but I DON’T CARE. I listen to the Almost Famous podcast with Ashley Iaconetti and Ben Higgins religiously. Every week after the Bachelorette I run to download their recap episode and listen to the whole hour and a half pretty much in one sitting.

Song- I don’t know how I just discovered this song, especially since I’m in love with Kelly Clarkson, but “Broken & Beautiful” from the movie ‘Ugly Dolls’ has been on my repeat list for the last few weeks. It’s so catchy and upbeat with such a strong, positive message.

App- Since I’ve been taking SO many photos and wanting to edit them well but quickly on my phone, I’ve been using the app Airbrush. I think it’s meant more for editing your face/body, but I think it has great features for editing the coloring/lighting/saturation and all that other stuff for landscape photos. I love just having an app on my phone that I can use anytime, anyplace.

Travel Accessory- I’ve been using my polka dot Kate Spade passport case (discontinued) for a couple of years now and am reminded of how much I love it every time I travel. Not only do I get to travel in style, but it makes it so easy to keep track of my passport and allows me to keep my other important cards and travel documents together in the same place.

Mode of Transport- Haha! I know this sounds weird, but for the first time in any of our lives, my family and I went on a cruise. I had honestly never thought much of cruises and was never really interested in it, but it ended up being hands down one of my favorite vacations/way to travel ever. We traveled with Princess Cruises, on the ship the Emerald Princess, and it was such a lovely experience. The ship, rooms, pool, clubs, bars, restaurants and everything else were so nice and clean and the staff and everyone who took care of us were so incredibly generous and made the trip so special.

Lots of fun Travel Diaries to come, so keep an eye out for those over the next few weeks. But for now, soak up the sun and enjoy the summer!

xx Aime

April & May Favorites 2019

Hello lovely friends! Hope you all had a FAB weekend. These last couple months have absolute FLOWN BY… so much so that I totally dropped the ball on monthly favorites. But we are back here today doing a little catch up on all my favorites from the last few months. Enjoy and I will talk to you again very soon! xx

Skincare Product- Now that its summer and a little more humid (especially now that I’m back in Asia), I’ve been living more lightweight moisturizers. My go-to is typically the Clinique moisturizer, but during these summer months I’ve been loving the Curél Moisturizing Milk. It’s so lightweight but still very hydrating.

Makeup Product- I’m not usually a blush person, but lately I’ve been using the Tarte Amazonian Clay Blush pretty much everyday. I love that it gives me a little rosy glow without being too much. It’s such a great addition to a neutral and natural makeup look.

Haircare Product- I think I’ve talked about this before, but I’ve been using the Garnier Fructis Sleek & Shine Anti-Frizz Serum a lot lately, and I’ve been loving it. It does such a good job at keeping your hair healthy and hydrating while still leaving it so radiant. And it’s such an incredible product and SO affordable.

Clothing Item- I found this really cute romper from Top Shop (can’t find the link:() at Saks Off Fifth on Black Friday and I’m so glad it’s finally summer and I can wear it now. It’s such a fun outfit that can be dressed up or down and can be worn for seriously any occasion. It’s just so fun and flirty.

Shoes- I just finished a month-long internship and was living for these SODA black espadrille platform sandals. They are SO cute and comfy while still looking put together and progressional. They’re so comfortable and could literally walk around in them all day without anything blisters. And best of all, gives you height!

Accessory- Since I was working this past month, I was wearing jewelry every day. My Return to Tiffany bracelet with the little blue heart has been my go-to every single day. It’s a very minimal piece that still makes a statement with the pop of blue.

Restaurant- Since I was able to spend the month of May back at home in Singapore, I was able to go back to all of my favorite SG spots. Lantern at the Fullerton Bay Hotel has always been one of my favorites. They have such cool and different drinks with the most s t u n n i n g view of the most beautiful part of Singapore.

Sweet Treat- When my sister and my mom came and visited LA a couple months ago, we went on a food tour around LA (not actually, but kinda haha) and of course HAD to visit Bumsan Milk Bar in Koreatown. They have amazing soft serve in a cereal cone and it’s the most decadent and delicious thing ever.

App- I love games and apps that can give me something mindless to do since I get distracted and bored really easily, and I found the game 1010! Color the other day (FREE!) and I’ve been pretty much playing it every free second I have.

Movie- This is definitely an older one, but for some reason I’ve watched Friends With Benefits four times in the last two weeks. It’s just such a fun and easy movie to watch on a lazy afternoon. But I also watched the new Always Be My Maybe on Netflix the other day and it was so good! Definitely did not disappoint.

TV Show- I love David Chang and all of his shows, and I’ve found myself rewatching all of his Ugly Delicious episodes lately. I’ve seriously seen them all at least three times and can’t wait for the second season to be out.

Song- I don’t know if a lot of people know this, but absolutely LOVE country music. It’s pretty much all I listen to. Jake Owen sang one of his new songs, Made For You, on last weeks episode of The Bachelorette and I’ve been obsessed with it ever since.

Mental Health Moment #9- EVERYTHING MENTAL HEALTH

Happy Sunday and happy Mental Health Awareness Month! Today I’m so excited to share this mega post that’s covering anything and everything mental health. I’ve said this before and I’ll say this again, it’s all about breaking the stigma. That phrase is seriously overused, but there still doesn’t seem to be much of a change. Mental health issues and struggles are everywhere, seriously… everywhere. It’s nothing to be ashamed of, it doesn’t make you weak, in fact I think that being able to recognize when you’re struggling and being able to reach out for help or treatment makes you one f*****g strong person. Take this week as inspiration to be open and honest about your journey, your struggles. Even if your story helps just one person, it’s all worth it.

My mental health update:

I wanted to start of with a little update on my mental health and where I’m at right now. To be honest, I’ve been struggling a bit the last few weeks transitioning from the end of my sophomore year to summer. Transitions are always hard for me because it interrupts my recovery and treatment routine and forces me to adapt quickly. I was able to talk about this with my therapists before leaving for the break, and I think that’s helped a lot, but it’s still hard. The best thing I can do for myself is continue to be open and honest about how everything’s going. A large part of this is being able to acknowledge when I’m not having a great day or when I’m feeling a bit off. If there’s been anything in my life that’s been nearly as hard as recovery, it’s faking being happy. There’s nothing worse than pretending that I’m feeling great and loving life when I just feel so unbelievably blah and empty inside. Being able to say that I am feeling really anxious or depressed that day has been the best thing I can do for myself. I’ve also had to learn that putting my mental health first means that I have to be selfish sometimes. I have to become comfortable with saying no (which is incredibly hard for me) and I have to be okay with asking my friends and support system for help when I need it. And actually, that isn’t selfish as at all as long as I’m also making sure to support those around me just as much as they support me. I have to remind myself, every single day, that I am worthy. Remind yourself that too.

Body Dysmorphia… What is it?

I’ve been really open about my ED and dealing with anxiety and depression, but one thing I haven’t really talked about is body dysmorphia. It usually goes hand in hand with EDs but also adds another level of complexity to the illness. Body dysmorphic disorder, by definition, is a disorder that makes you focus on certain and specific physical flaws in your appearance. They are often so small that no one else would notice it, but it’s often times the only thing you notice about yourself. It can become so severe that you make drastic changes in your behavior and social behavior to avoid flare ups of these feelings. For me personally, my body dysmorphia would be extremely severe right before a purge, but would subside right after (I’ve learned that this is the eating disorder voice telling me what it wants me to hear). I feel comfortable in baggy sweatpants and sweatshirts that cover up my body and feel extremely anxious when wearing anything that exposes parts of my body. A big part of my recovery, and one of the goals I set for myself this summer, is to become comfortable wearing clothes I want to wear, no matter how uncomfortable I feel in it. BD is one of the aspects of mental illnesses and eating disorders that often goes under the radar, maybe because to some it seems like an overreaction, but it’s just as important/severe as anything else.

Tips and tricks: on days where you’re feeling less than, try these tips out and remember that everything will be okay

  • Breathe– Take deep breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth to slow down your sympathetic nervous system.
  • Essential oils– Use different blends of essential oils, either on your body or in a diffuser to help reset & revive your mind. Lavender, spearmint and ylang ylang are my favorites to diffuse every day.
  • Get creative– Grab a piece of paper and just start doodling, painting or whatever else your creative juices are feeling. If you’d rather use a device, there are tons of coloring and doodling apps that work just as well.
  • Gratitude– Write down three things you are grateful for, right then and there in the moment. This is something you can do right there on the spot or incorporate it into your morning/daily routine.
  • Fidget– One of my friends got me a bag of marbles to play with every time I’m feeling anxious, and it’s actually been one of the best ways to help calm myself down.
  • Do nothing– Remember that it’s okay to do absolutely nothing sometimes, it’s not lazy, it’s not selfish, it’s necessary.
  • Pamper– Take a bath, take a long shower, book a massage or a facial, anything that’s going to help you feel normal and special.
  • Move– You don’t have to do anything intense to get your body going, a quick yoga session or even just a leisurely walk in your favorite area of town will do the trick. Anything to get your heart rate up and blood flowing will always make you feel better.
  • Clean– Having a clean space can help clear your mind. When your space is cluttered, it’s easy for your mind to reflect your environment. Tidying up and doing a simple clean can help you feel in control of everything, and it’s a great way to get moving a bit.
  • Therapy– This isn’t something you can do right on the spot, but I really believe that therapy is a life-changer. Ever since I began therapy, I feel so much more centered on a daily basis. It’s not going to fix all your problems at once, it’s a practice that takes time, but it helps, I promise.

 

#inspo:

 

As always, I’m sending an infinite amount of love, support and positive vibes your way. Whatever you’re going through, however shitty your day/week/month has been, I promise it will get better, I promise the light will come. Someone in my life once told me that there is no “light at the end of the tunnel” but simply people who love you bringing a light into the tunnel. Eventually there are so many people shining a light around you that you forget you are in the tunnel. I’ve been playing that through my head constantly the last few weeks, and it’s helped put everything in perspective. Being at rock bottom has allowed me to see beauty and joy more clearly than ever. The light will come, believe me.

Lots of love xx